It's been awhile...

I just remembered I started this blog a year and a half ago, so I thought I would pull it back up and check it out.  I need a way to keep everyone updated.  I feel bad because I know people close to me want to know what is going on, and many feel weird asking.  FYI, It doesn't bother me to talk about it.  I know most people feel weird and uncomfortable asking me about it, and I know society makes it seem like it's something you don't ask people about because it is "taboo" like, but I don't mind.  I know you're just curious, and I would be too. 

I remember the night I began this blog.  We had just begun our 2nd infertility treatment.  I was as big as a house.  I had been injected with countless medications, and I looked 6 months pregnant.  It was a bad night.  I couldn't sleep.  Obviously the treatments didn't work...

...so here we are again.  I've neglected this blog.  It started as a whim...a bad night..."I'll write about it," I thought.  But when things didn't turn out how I'd hoped- just thinking about it was painful, so writing about it wasn't going to happen.  I'm in a better place now.  Some questions have been answered.  Not solved-we're still a ways from there...

I do not have a real goal for this blog.  I suppose my only objective will be to keep my friends and family updated...and maybe vent a little.  Infertility isn't something I am comfortable talking about with just anyone (i.e. facebook), so I thought this would be the best way to let the ones I love know about what is going on.  I am much better at writing than I am at talking, so I think this idea is a good one. 
I am sure there will be a lot of writing in the coming days.  There are big plans in store.  Damn.  I just remembered...I need to go take my hormones... :)  Ahh...maybe this is going to be more helpful than I first thought. :)